Saturday, October 10, 2009

I haven't posted in a while.  A lot has been going on.  There have been some really good things: Abby won it all at her gym meet (a post with pictures will come soon!)  Jake is playing basketball and seems to really like it!  They have had some spend the nights and play dates...BUT... I am still struggling!  It seems like each day that I try to take a step forward I move a few steps back.  Keith is STILL working 2 1/2 hours away everyday.  It is really putting a strain on our family.  Moving is one thing but adding never seeing Keith to the mix is really tough.  When he traveled in Birmingham it wasn't a big deal because I had such a network there, but here I have me, myself and I to take care of all that needs to be taken care of.  Not to mention, the CRAZY school situation.

I long desperately to move back home!  I know that may not be in God's plan and I am trying to accept that and I will, but I still long for it! I get tired of people acting like I just need to get over it and move on.  Those people obviously weren't as happy as I was in Hoover!  

Charlotte...the next big decision.  So, we have learned a lot being in Raleigh.  One of the main things is we don't feel like this is the right place for us.  So, we have a decision to make.  Do we move to Charlotte???  It is closer to most of the facilities Keith will be working at, it is closer to family and friends, the schools aren't tracked in/tracked out-reassigning all the time.  So why is the decision hard?  I will tell you....the thought of moving AGAIN!  And deep down I secretly hope that when the time comes to move Keith will have found a job back in AL (the REAL south) and I can go home!  

So I have been awake since 4:30 (which is pretty typical when I have a lot on my mind) sitting here thinking about where God is going to take my family!  I will continue to get on my knees and ask him to open the doors that need to opened and close the doors that need to be closed and to make it CRYSTAL CLEAR what the right decision is.  

A lesson I have learned...I am human and nothing more.  God is in total control and all I can do is wait and see where he leads me and yes, I will follow even if he has to drag me!

2 comments:

  1. Megan @ Hold it Up to the LightOctober 10, 2009 at 8:03 AM

    Praying for you friend....I miss you so much and love you even more!

    I sure hope that it will be clear as chrystal soon....and praying that the road will lead you home to us.

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  2. amorris1967October 10, 2009 at 8:48 PM

    God has dragged me many times with heels dug in. It took a long time, but I did end up back where I belong and you will too...end up where you belong, that is. It's so hard in the meantime. I know. I cried myself to sleep many nights for about 2 years in Cincinnati...you remember. But what's funny is that when I got to where I really loved Cinci I came back home. I think it was at that time God gave me an option... I chose back to B'ham instead of staying in Cinci or moving to Nashville. I'm praying for you that God will show you what it is your sweet family is supposed to get out of this,...so you can come back home soon! ;-) Love and miss you.

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